My mind is in such a fucked up state right now. Never have I been so embarrassed in my life. Im just going to quit and run away. For the past year my job has been hell. I feel like crying before I go each day. I get shouted at a lot for making simple mistakes by my manager and get treated so badly. I always get singled out, threatened and punished for doing wrong things but nobody else faces these consequences. For example I have to wear shoes that are really uncomfortable for 4hrs straight whereas everyone else can wear trainers. Or not asking every customer to complete online surveys. I always get told security cameras are watching me if i miss a customer which puts me uner alot of pressure and make even more mistakes. Now i'm sure youre thinking why not just speak up and tell them how you feel. I don't say anthing because I guess im just scared of getting myself into even trouble and if I did my workmates would say "Its Trax's fault that we all have to wear shoes now". So I just dealt with it. This has caused me an immense amount of stress and caused me to lose alot of sleep this year. But now heres the main bit that has put me in an even worse state. My mum went to my workplace and basically vented for me. She told them everthing about how I get mistreated, shouted at and she even went behind then tills to look at their shoes. This was in front of all my workmates and gossip spreads like wildfire in that place. Even worse the girl I liked works there to. I know she had good intentions but shit. What man has their mum fight thier battles for them? I had no pride to begin with as its my fault for not talking up in the first place and defending myself but my pride is dead and buried now. I was building my confidence up but its all gone now and ive given up. Im going to resign on Saturday can't bare the shame. Just after hearing her tell me that just now I can't eat or even do my school work anymore. It was stressful enough that I had college 5 days a week and finish at 7pm on 4 days with a shit load of assignments then go to work on saturday and sunday. I just made this post to vent out, and tell someone about it. I would like your input on the situation if you can. What kept me going through this hellish job is knowing for a fact that others got it worse but this shit just aint cut out for me. Thanks for reading.
Damn :/ Stressful life. Though, honestly speaking, and this may be the unpopular opinion, but I think it was a good thing your parents deeply care for you and attempted to defend you. Yeah, it was embarrassing as heck having a parent defend for the child, but it shows how much love and care your mom actually has. Based on how you described your workplace, it may have been better in the end to resign. You've got College to pile up against too, so now you'd be able to have more time on it.I don't really view it as a self-esteem blow, or a break in your self-image to others, but rather appreciation that you have some caring parents. Maybe too overprotective, but at least they're still here. Sorry if this looks like a "wtf ur wrong, git btter" post, but that's my input on it. Don't dwell too much on what happened, or worry too much about pride. You're resigning anyway, so it's not like you'll see them over and over again in your life.
I'm no expert, but it sounds like leaving was the right choice. That workplace sounds really unfair and unpleasant, and you were clearly very unhappy there. Hopefully now you can either stay jobless for a bit to destress, or get a job in a much better environment! I hope things will just get better for you from here c: <3
Getting really embarassed in those kind of situations are terrible. But, as bad as it is now, most likely in a year or two it wont matter to you anymore. Thats something I wish I used to know.
sorry man take the time you need you clear your head, college really is stressful enough as is and you deserve some breathing room sounds like the management was really poor at that place, i think you'll be much better off knowing what kind of working environments are the best fit for you after this
it only gets better from here. dont lose face get out there and show em trax youre fuckin awesome take care
Thank you all for your comments and opinions on the situation guys. I really do appreciate it, the kindness you guys have shown me really makes me happy to be apart of this community and has helped me to think a better. Knowing that there are people I can come to in my troubled lifts my spirits up. I will be quitting this saturday if not ill probably fail college and have another mental break down. Not going to suffer for a job I hate so passionatly. Thank you again
Hey man I was in a similar situation about a year ago, I feel you. Do what you got to do and what Aidan said, it wont matter to you in the long run :D
I hope everything gets better for your situation, there's always better job out there, if you're getting treated with misfortune leave it, don't let money struggle force you into something that will ruin you mentally long term. You made the right decision.
