And I don't simply mean with another person, while that is acceptable too. It can be your passions, video games, acting, touching yourself, working out, programming, animating, etc. When did you realize that you wanted that to be a big part of your life?
involving a person: it was this girl who was way out of my league but i still liked her and stuff. it turned out she was moving at the end of my 8th grade school year and we were closer than ever. everyone in my theatre class was crying because not only was it our last class period together before summer began, but also because she was moving. she told everyone really nice things to their faces. but to me, she wrote a note. i didn't read it until i got home. it was some of the nicest things anyone had ever said to me, and then she ended the letter by saying "you're on of my favorite people and a really good FRIEND." I just kind of stopped caring about relationships after that. I legit know like 5 girls that like me and i'd probably date, but i just don't feel the need to do so, nor do i really want to be in any type of relationships atm because i don't even have my own self on track. i switch from happy to sad in a heartbeat and i can barely find any way to satisfy myself, so what makes me think i can satisfy myself and a girl? Butyeah. i don't do relationship stuff. involving other stuff: i first got introduced to animation by watching Destructionseries videos and i always wanted to do it so then i started using flipnote hatena, then i saw some maplestory collabs, then i found out about maplemation, then i came here, and now i animate a lot. that's pretty much it...
I can relate to this. It'll get better, trust me. While she may not be the one someone will come along who makes you feel all that tenfold, I hope your next endeavor in love goes good, and also that you can feel right with yourself again. Best wishes dude.
Person? I'll tell you when it happens. Passion? I told this story before on the inspiration thread, but once I watched the movie "The Iron Giant" it developed my love for animation because it made me feel so happy that there was a media that could convey a message as effective as animation can. Video Game? First one I played and loved was Super Mario World for the SNES when I was like 5 or something. I just felt completely amazed at the fact that someone could make something that provided as much entertainment as it did for me. Acting? I did Theatre Arts in High School, trying to play the role of someone other than myself made me feel quite odd as I had to try to think like someone I'm not.
You're fukckin- I wait for @Blez so she can re-tell me her stories for the fifth time. And for @Taki very exciting harems'
Spoiler: ̶I̶g̶n̶o̶r̶e̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶i̶f̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶w̶a̶n̶n̶a̶ ̶s̶e̶e̶ ̶a̶ ̶v̶e̶n̶t̶ I was cheated on after 6 months completely out of nowhere after being promised so strongly how much she valued me, that it wouldn't ever happen, and how perfect I was to her, only for her to tell me it was all just out of desperation the entire time.
I'VE LOVED EUROPA SINCE THIRD GRADE! Also the first person I ever had real romantic feelings for was a gay guy :'D......... I love a lot of things, and I definitely don't have time to write about them all right now, but if you want to know more about anything specific, let me know and I'll elaborate later, I guess..? I'm not sure I have anything that exciting. Oh, but I did make $1000 off of a crush! Not even shitting you. I can tell that story if you want, LOL.
Fighting: I loved fighting ever since i stood up against my bully in 3rd grade. We kicked our legs till we couldn't walk anymore, we had to sit on the ground and get to know each other, then helped each other walk back to class and that's how we became best friends. From then on, the only people i ever considered a real friend were those that i had a serious balanced fight where both could go all out at each other without seriously injuring eachother. Many don't know how friendship fights work, they just fight to win and prove something in the wrong circumstances, but real men fight to get to know each other. Art: Art life chose me, i started doing it passionately when my mother was sick and had to stay in a different country, i used to send her drawings and poetry. I always got good feedback, like that one time in 5th grade where we had to draw junkfood, i drew a mars bar, my teacher freaked out because it looked like photography and called every teacher she could get to stare at it. My best friend at the time used to encourage me to make it a career, i never considered it because of my colorblindness, but he even said he would handle the color picking for me, which was pretty bromantic from him. Sadly most of the time, i only got discouraged from biased teachers, otherwise i would have taken it more seriously early on. Chicks: I had several crushes and several crushes were on me, but i never was in a relationship, except with one girl from this forum long time ago, which i never met so i'm not sure if i can count that. I fuck up a lot, sometimes it's like i try to prevent myself subconciously from getting in to a relationship. Which i am kinda thankful for sometimes. But damn, i love girls. All kinds of girls. Big, small, busty, flat, buff, thin, tall, short, black, yellow, blonde, red haired, mutated, freckled, cougars, teens, newborns, etc. I love girls so much that if girls were actually boys, i would be gay. "Game making": Or just game designing at this stage. This passion slowly developed over the time on this community. I figured that game making combines all my passions in to one and that everything required for it is in my range of talents and skills. I got a push from a shitty job where i had to wake up at 4 am and return home at 9 pm, i gained plenty of overall experience as the only apprentice in a 3 head company. I had to literally do every job for them, from installing unique security systems that nobody comprehended to making ads, maintaining a server, an online shop and many other things, all of that even tho my apprenticeship was supposedly in accounting and administration. It was the most exhausting and soul breaking 3 three years of my life and a good preparation for the future i planned. During business school i was seen as the type of guy who would own his own company by some classmates, that boosted my motivation. My informatics teacher whom i always respected for his intelligence even boosted it further with his constant praising. My law teacher hated me because i had a crush on her and used to draw her during class, she didn't know that i listened to every single syllable that came from her wonderfully nerdy mouth. So she discouraged me and said i should pursue an apprenticeship in art instead of wasting her time. Those words as she spoke them close to my face gave me a huge hard on, otherwise i would have stood up and left the room to pursue my dreams at that moment, but it took me another year to make that decision. Internet: It deserves a spot amongst the things i love. It should never be taken for granted. I have learned more on the internet than anywhere else in my life. I barely use it for useless memes, i spend most of the time trying to get the education i missed out. I basically came to the realisation that i can fit the biggest library ever in history in my own pocket, so i'm trying to put it to use as good as possible. The only thing i lack is a teacher who tests and measures my knowledge. But sometimes you can't have everything.
@VloneWulf Don't take what Blez said personally, please c: I mean, I feel like I learned a lot about you. ... But you're still a huge creep.
I met him on the day I first walked in an mma gym He was so fckin handsome. I couldn't keep my hands off his rock hard body. He always looked so edgy, and sexy with the leather he wore everyday I would punch him, kick him in the nards, and he never complained He always made me feel so powerful, and that's what I loved most about him To this day, I still have these strong feelings for him Spoiler: For the one and only in my heart Punching bag I love you
Not really a 1st love but...there was a girl I liked in high school. We barely talked, but I think she might've liked me too. We caught each other staring at the other a couple dozen times, though we never said anything about it. She would even greet or congratulate me out of the blue, then swiftly walk or run away. No one in high school does that. Not to me at least. ...I should've asked her out when I had the chance :(
