And sorry for being less active; I've been wrapped up in Mabi.
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I've been accepted into the University of Hawai'i at Hilo, and I've sent in my intent to enroll and registered for classes for fall 2017. The dorms open on August 15th, and I'll hopefully move in on the first day. I visited the campus during the first week of April, and I'm super excited!!!!!!! The classes are fairly small, all of the students seem really nice (one girl I talked to a lot, also my campus tour guide, says everyone is nice and apparently anime is pretty big there? SO HELL YES). I'll be majoring in astronomy, though I might dual major in physics as well. It's a lot of work, but a bachelor's in astronomy is so close to a bachelor's in physics that you only have to take a couple of extra classes to reach that, and it's more applicable. It'll probably take me another 2-3 years (with summer classes, probably) to get my bachelors, and then I'm on to their Manoa campus to get my PhD. I'M REALLY REALLY EXCITED!!! Moving to Hawai'i has been on my mind daily ever since I visited; it really seems like it'll be a fantastic school for me.
I've also been playing a lot more Mabi lately, which is fun. But what's great is that I joined a new guild, called Persistence, and I love it sooooooooo much. I feel way healthier and even happier than I did in my last guild; we run a bunch of stuff together every day and we do raids at least once a week. I love every single person in the guild so so so so so much, and I fit in really well there. I'm in calls with them on a daily basis, and it's overall just super great. My last three videos have all been memes for them. I think about them a lot and what we can do together and what memes to send them and stuff, and I absolutely love spending time with all of them, both as a group and individually. I've been in the guild for about a month now, a little longer, and I'm SO HAPPY!!! I literally cannot properly express just how happy I am in this community.
"Memes and screenshots of my squad"
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And the shitty stuff, because of course something has to balance out the above:
My parents have been living separately since early February; they have a rental house and they alternate spending weeks there. They did the same thing once before when I was little (around age 2-3, probably my earliest memory), but they moved back in together eventually and haven't split up since. But a week ago they told my sister and I that they're not going to get back together, and, consequently, they're going to sell our house. Which is a lot of changes. They haven't told me and my sister why they're divorcing, either. And when they told us, I was sick, so I couldn't hug my sister when she cried, which was absolutely awful. And even though I'll be in Hawai'i for most of the next 5-7 years, I can't stand the thought of selling this house. We bought the land and built on it; this house is catered specifically to us, and there are very few people that it would appeal to. The pets have plenty of room here, and everyone is used to it. My sister doesn't want to move, either, and if we sell it and move, I'll probably be in Hawai'i so I won't even be able to move my own things. Or pick my own room? Nor do we have any idea which parent my sister and I will live with, or who will take which pets. Neither of my parents are going to move far away, but suddenly, rather than "my parents," they're "mom" and "dad" as individual entities without a definite connection, not even in the same household anymore. And again, my sister and I don't have any idea why they're splitting up. If I recall correctly, when they told us that they were going to be living separately in early February, they said it was "pretty mutual." But aside from that, the only "hint" I have, if it could even be called that, is that my mom was the only one who didn't cry when they told us that they're going to divorce. And I might come back from Hawai'i during a break at some point to a completely different house. I don't think we know what we're going to do in terms of extended family gatherings, either. My parents have been together for 26 years, too; it's stunning that they'd suddenly split up. Thinking of how it will affect my sister and all of the pets is really upsetting. I'm also a little worried that my sister will think, "I don't want to deal with this anymore," and move out. She certainly has the means to. Additionally, while this is a very minor thought (it seems pretty unlikely), the idea of either one of my parents becoming romantically involved with someone else is almost frightening, maybe just because it's such a foreign idea to me. Primarily, I don't want my sister to be sad, I don't want our pets to be upset or confused, and I don't want to lose the gorgeous house that I've spent the last thirteen years of my life in. I discussed the latter two points with my mom; I had a list of at least fifteen reasons we should keep the house, but she said not to get my hopes up. I really don't want to come home from Hawai'i to so many changes.
That's a lot off my chest.
Any advice regarding that last matter would be appreciated. I'm really glad that it's balanced out by UHH and Persistence; that makes it so much easier to handle.
Why'd you read this far, though? lmao
